I had been doing really really good for awhile there, no boyfriends, no *lovey-dovey* BS. but damn, things seem to have gone downhill somewhere... I haven't felt any pain like this in my chest, not since the near fatal pain that I had felt with my last boyfriend, nearly two years ago.
There really isn't much I can do, really... well, it's one of those akward kinds of situations, where, you know, I am just one person, and everyone likes me(no, that is NOT a vanity thing, really, it's like I'm in a pet store covered in catnip) and I never rejected anyone, I try to be friends with everyone.. but nonetheless, there are still people who like me in *that* way, and I just couldn't let myself break my silent vows...
Now, those same vows that kept my heart safe for so long, have wrapped themselves areound my chest and hurt me everytime I see them, or think about them. not so much when I'm with them, but... I don't know...
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